Her gift to us
We are still trying to get a handle on what has happened to us. We have been humbled (in a good way) by all the love and prayers showered upon us by strangers, family, and friends. After Maeve's funeral I kept remarking to Randy, "I can't believe so-and-so sent flowers," and "Can you believe she drove down from Elmira?" Friends that took off work, one who told me that she would have quit if she wouldn't been able to take off. It isn't like anyone did anything out of character, like my friend that drove down from Elmira or anyone that sent flowers, but it was completely amazing to us, all of it, nearly all at once.
In between the bouts of sadness and crying, Randy and I have been looking back over the past eight months. It was the happiest we have been as a family perhaps ever. We were ecstatic to learn we were expecting when I came back from China this summer. When we reunited in China in the fall, we were ridiculously and sickeningly happy. Life was a great big open adventure to us. If I ended the story right there, it would have read "and they lived happily ever after. the end." I mean, how could it not?
I really believe that was Maeve's gift to us. I was hoping that I would be giving Randy another daughter to adore, that we would be giving Myles a sister close to his age to be his on-call companion and support later in life. But she gave us the most of all. She gave us eight months of joy and hope and love.
Thank you sweet baby. We love you.
In between the bouts of sadness and crying, Randy and I have been looking back over the past eight months. It was the happiest we have been as a family perhaps ever. We were ecstatic to learn we were expecting when I came back from China this summer. When we reunited in China in the fall, we were ridiculously and sickeningly happy. Life was a great big open adventure to us. If I ended the story right there, it would have read "and they lived happily ever after. the end." I mean, how could it not?
I really believe that was Maeve's gift to us. I was hoping that I would be giving Randy another daughter to adore, that we would be giving Myles a sister close to his age to be his on-call companion and support later in life. But she gave us the most of all. She gave us eight months of joy and hope and love.
Thank you sweet baby. We love you.
Comments
Kristen
I am Rachel B's (Testosterhome) dad so I , of course, read of your loss recently. As one of her avid readers I have followed her ups and downs. I have found the comments between sisters of the blog most heartwarming. There is truly a network for life among you. I know that this on-line community suffers with you at this time. I have thought often of you, your family, the great trip your husband made to come home...It must have seemed overwhelming at times. My prayer is that you will be comforted through this and, in fact, strengthened. Thank you for so openly sharing your heart...I know it has meant so much to so many of us.
Steve
I linked here through my friend Rachel's BLOG. Please know that we are praying for you at this time. My husband and I are currently waiting to see if our baby is alive. They can't find him / her on the sonograms. Hopefully we'll find out tomorrow. It's great to know that there are more people out there who value life above other things. Thanks for your witness to His mercy,love and healing. Praying for you daily,
Heather Raven
let me know if you want to get together some time. i think you were supposed to be moving to china...
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
I have always lived my life with the phrase "God never gives us anything we can't handle". Your Inspirational message is just proof to me that this saying is true. You are a special gift from God to our family.
Love, Aunt AM
honey wine, warrior queen --
too strong for this Earth
The Father, connoisseur,
bought up the whole brew
i prayed and prayed that no one would have to feel this pain especially my sister. you have proven, however, that you are far stronger than i had ever imagined. you may not think so, but i assure you...you wear it right next to your mommy badge. i sat here for a bit, crying and trying to decide what it was i wanted to say to you...there is nothing anyone can say that will make it all better. i know that. i am so greatful that you have found a way to embrace the joy that you had.
i envy you. i love you and miss you!!!
love corinne